Learning from my past--Post #1

I’m starting something new this year with my blog! For over 20 years I’ve kept/maintained different types of journals. Two journals that have greatly impacted the person I am today are my “scripture study” journal and my “tender mercy” journal. In my scripture study journal, I record impressions I receive while studying my scriptures (pretty obvious haha), and for my tender mercy journal, I record how I’ve seen the Lord bless me that day and the things I’m grateful for.

Anyway, I’ve been prompted to share some of those entries. Obviously some are too personal to share, but there are some that I feel compelled to share (even though it feels really vulnerable to do it🙈). 

Occasionally I’ll make a “learning from my past” post, where I’ll simply share something I wrote in my journal at some point in time—it might have been 15 years ago, 5 years, or 2 weeks…just whatever I feel to share. I know it will bless to me to do this, and I hope it will benefit others too.😘 

So, here's my first "learning from my past" entry!

Journal Entry November 9, 2018

On the eve of my 30th birthday, I can’t help but to be filled with gratitude for the beautiful life I have been blessed with thus far. I can say in all honesty that I am happy and peaceful—which is such a gift. Even with the trials I have faced this past year, I have still found such joy and fulfillment in my journey. I love my four beautiful children. I love my husband. I love being a mom.

Today I found joy in watching Karter carefully place his stuffed animals before going to bed, and telling me why each is special to him (I know this stage will pass too soon); I found joy in dancing to the pajama song with Karoline; I found joy in watching Lyssa point to her nose, eyes, mouth, and belly; and I found joy in laying by Tate in his bed and snuggling him as he drifted to sleep.

What a gift it is to feel calm and peaceful—because I know what it is like to feel otherwise. I have a peaceful feeling that all trials I am currently facing will resolve, and that so much joy and many blessings will continue to unfold in my life. As long as I put God first, I will continue to taste of His goodness and blessings. I love my life, and look forward to my next 30 years.❤