A few years ago, I wrote this line in my journal, “I hope I never become numb to how good my
life really is.” It is something I still hope for. I hope it for all of us.
What do I mean by becoming “numb”? I am referring to things that dull the
senses, harden the heart, blind the eyes, and deafen the ears. Things that
distract us from what matters most. Things that hinder the Spirit in our lives.
Things that blind us from the joy and blessings of motherhood. Those “numbing things”
are different for everyone (wasting time on social media, selfishness,
negative thinking, vanity, Netflix binging, envy, overeating…the list could go
on and on). If we aren’t careful of such numbing vices in our lives, we will
slowly but steadily become blind to the sweet and tender moments of motherhood.
There is much joy and goodness
surrounding us, but we have to do our part to see and experience it. In other
words, we have to wake up from being numb.
I had a “wake up” call during one of my pregnancies
(pregnancy and I don’t get along as you can probably tell from my other blog
posts 😉). Life as a mother was feeling overwhelming and numbness to the good
in life was creeping in. Amidst all the nausea, vomiting, sleepless nights, and
fatigue, it was hard to see much good. On one particularly difficult day, I
sincerely prayed for help. How can I get
through this?